one of those times.

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial
.
Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

- Damian Rice.

Bermood sayu.. sedih hati. :(

cerita baru.

i've been to two job interviews. haven't heard any news from any of them. hehe. mcm tak dpt jer. i'm actually quite confused with what i should be doing after my degree. i knoe i wanted to complete at least one professional qualification. but which one? part-time ke full-time ke? local or overseas? should i start working in july? should i start in audit firm or straight away go commercial? gile pening wey. one of the firms which i went for the interview had clearly clarified, assuming i'm being offered for the job, and assuming i wanna do acca, they'd want me to complete at least one paper in this coming december exam. uish. gile cpt. tapi i still hv that dream of doing acca di uk, which would need me to apply for scholarship, which akan kluar either in this oct or feb nxt yr. if i were to apply utk scholarship tu, n klu lah i got the job, mstlah nk delay buat acca part-time with the firm kan? betul tak? mstlah nk tunggu whether i'd be selected for the spc kan?

if to think of the pros and cons. to do acca locally pn is not that bad. in fact, not bad at all. ramai jek world prize winners utk acca tu student sunway. no need to go that far pn kan. tapinye, nk rase pegi uk! isk isk. :( dpt pegi london gile best. rase mcm niat dh salah pn ade kan? haihh.

pastunye. if i were to do any pro qua locally, i'm thinking to go for micpa jugak. i mean, not do acca n micpa serentak. but micpa is also one of my options. since i've failed the last time, why not re-attempt kan? at least i already knew the whole process of sitting for micpa exam.

maybe i should seek for firm which would allow me to delay nk buat professional qualification. i wanna try for that spc! but i also need to work masa sblum offer spc tu kluar.. nk kene ada income jugak.. duit mara nk stop dh ni.. isk isk. :((

pastu, cerita seterusnye. sufiah the genius. hurm. i'm one of those who are against the govt attempt to save her. what for?? she did not contribute anything to the country. what have she done for us? daripada sebok2 nk selamatkan dia kt uk tu, baik slamatkan prostitutes kt malaysia ni yg desperately doing whatever they are doing for the sake of survival. what for saving sufiah who is vey proud and happy with what she is doing for living? she claimed she's now being treated like a princess. dia seronok dgn hidup die. why waste time and effort on someone who does not even have the tiniest regret in her? pembaziran melampau! there are too many other MALAYSIAN CITIZENS who ARE living IN MALAYSIA needing the help from the govt. haih. kesal.

now back to my life. malam ni ade dinner! although it is for the whole part 8 students and not only my batch, i'm still looking forward to it. :D and oh, i'm having my exams starting end of this month. the first paper would be malaysian futures and options on the 24th. uhh. dah nak habis belajar! cepat kan? hehe.

ais.

we've spent the last one hr and a half bersembang dan berborak dan bergosip in this lab. skrg tgh ais. and the lecturer is in front. not that we talk while he's in front lecturing, but we talk while he's in front reading. reading apa, i dunno. the point is, i'm bored. everyone is surfing the internet and i'm in no mood of doing the same. so di sinilah i. hehe.

today is the third day after the election. and the results were, shocking? not really shocking. kinda expected dah. its obvious lah. five states are now in the hands of the opposition. i dun hv much to say on this. like ive said before, i'm not into politics. knowing few facts is already enough for me.

anyway, DAP's hannah yeoh who won in subang jaya is quite young. i heard from someone that she was once a head prefect of smsj. tapi tak sempat lah dgn dia. super super senior.
(takde apa utk di point out from this pun. saja nk ckp. ahah)

hish bosan.

I'm currently in search for a job. HAPPY BIRTHDAY EFA! :))

marchh!

after so long. it's already marchh. and i just finished my mid-term test today. there's nothing much to watch on TV. Malaysian TV channels are busy with the coming election. propaganda di mana2. this year's election is like whoaa. (i do not know whether it's really whoaa or i just didnt care about election dulu2. hehe). so. for 2008 election. whats it gonna be for barisan nasional? just u wait for 8th march. enough about the election. pleasee i want real news on tv. haishh. it's not that i have anything against the election, but it's practically everywhere. newspapers, traffic lights, the cars on the highway, etc etc. i'm not into politics. period.

nak balik rumahh. giler lah. dah dua weekend tak balik.

updates for the last three weeks.
- was broken-hearted. cried several times. ngeh.
- financial planning talk
- went swimming
- line dancing (having high hopes to sign up for classes for this.)
- jalan2 di bukit tinggi (new jusco di klang)
- nyanyi2 sume lagu yg ada dlm mp3. i think i've memorized all the 59 songs. hehe

i really havent done much i think. ahah. oklah. bye.

break ends.

esok nak start klasss. and i still have loads of assignments. and the most delayed sekali. koreaa.

other than that, i'm holding grudge. seriously. dengki, menyampah sume ada.

it's very frustrating to see how some people can get whatever they wanted in life without having to work for it.

bukan nak kata tak bersyukur ke apa kan. tapi, tu lah.

dahlar dpt sume benda. pastu tak reti nak emphathize for others yang tak bernasib baik like them.

be sensitive sikit lah. open your eyes and see beyond what's around you. think of comfort of others. fikir diri sendiri jekk.

i dunno whether what i'm feeling has anything to do with ape org ckp tu 'melayu mmg suka dengki'? or not.

does it matter pun?

saya mmg tak berpuas hati. tak suka.

pastu, i'm also done meminta this and that. and i'm done telling this and that. i wont ask anymore. and i'm not giving either.

i wont make time to chat nor talk. i'll just refuse.

maybe it's better off.

ACCA-related.

My recent visit to MARA, which was earlier today is my second visit. eh no. third already. the first one was with eby before the SPC ad was out. second was with dyen last monday after the ad is out but I did not manage to get the SPC form (sbb i bluntly menceritakan kisah benar bahawa I haven't finished my degree). and the third one is today. with eby again. I did not present myself at the counter for fear of akak kt counter tuh would recognize me since I was just there last monday. hehe. so only eby went up and flashed our diploma transcript and unethically, we did secure ourselves the forms. hurm. sounds wrong eh? agakk ahh.

However, later on we went to an agency which manages application to uni's (yet another. *sigh*). There, this akak explained all the same procedures that I've heard from mabecs, iuacc, etc2 and the outcome is just the same. Akan tetapi I did ask her on how much probability for us (yg tak habis degree lagi nih) to get the SPC. jgn kata nk dpt SPC, pegi interview pn belum tentu. haha. and unfortunate for us, she said MARA will not consider applicants who have not completed their degree/dip or whtever. haih. so usaha mendptkan borang tuh agak cm.. sedikit sia2. sedikit jer lah. cuz we thought of just submitting. manalah tahu kann.

semakin jumpa ramai orang (agent2, mara, etc) dan mendengar kata-kata dan tunjuk ajar mereka, semakin tipis peluang yg kelihatan. haish.

nak buat local pun takde duit. ngeh. maybe i'll just go and get a job. haih.

ohh. result micpa sampai kt rumah tadi. -> failure.